Flashback -present

I'm slightly awake
But again, I can't tell
Dreams and reality melts
They left me in fear
I am no longer someone I used to be
I think that girl is dead
So don't look for her
Please don't worry,-I'm not trying to scare you
I can barely see you
You're so far away
When I closed my eyes
I can't feel you
I never forget, never
I'm just no longer the girl you're looking for
They closed my eyes
Shut my mouth
and injects me every day
I can't resist
The pain I used to moan
I no longer think about that anymore
When I bow, my bones are breaking
It feels so hurt
It feels so good
My tears gone mute
Only your hug can hear them
This space and time
Are we waiting for something?